I always felt the desire deep down inside me to express myself. I of course tried various kinds of social media. But most of them really dissatisfy me. I love the convenience provided by these time-consuming machines. But I hate the emptiness after feeling and guessing the true intention behind one after after short but elaborated sentences and pictures, especially when they really trigger my certain emotion, e.g. complacency or envy. I hated them more when I realized afterward I am just being manipulated.
Then I started the idea of beginning a blog. A place where I can express myself but I must first go through the pain of setting up the environment (I know nothing about front-end design for now). A place where I can carefully modify my words to expound my thoughts, even after publication. I believe this moderate kind of obstruction is just perfect to filter out the unsound thoughts or the thoughts that do not worth mentioning in the very first place. That’s why I uninstall the Weibo, Facebook, etc. I want a place where I need to pay a little more effort to express myself and people need to pay a little more effort to hear from me.
When I try to choose the themes of my blog, I am struck again with the purpose of this blog. At first I think to take a blog is like taking a diary, which can be used to record my thoughts and thus prevent me from thinking the same thing again. Then in the future I can pick up the point from where I stop thinking last time. Then I thought the blog is a perfect place to demonstrate myself, maybe travelling pictures or book reviews, though I haven’t travelled for a long time and I haven’t really finished any books recently (I like to read many books at the same time and just randomly pick the one I feel like to read). I even thought this website should be used for career purpose. So I should put my publication lists here. Well, the purpose of this blog is still unclear now. I guess I just write whatever I feel like for a while.
With all above being said, it is pretty possible that this is my first and last post. BTW, I felt a little dizzy yesterday so I took the COVID test. Wish me good luck.